I Hate Journaling.

I hate journaling.

To be honest, I hate to write PERIOD. I get hand cramps, the ink starts smearing all over the place. Not to mention my lackluster penmanship, which only serves as a visual reminder of my struggles in school.

My self-esteem can’t handle writing (or golf for that matter). Oh, and another thing: my thoughts never come out right on paper. They are jagged…they are disjointed…they don’t sound nearly as good in black and white as they do in my head.

Simply said, writing stinks!

But how can I be a Christian if I don’t keep a journal? Isn’t that…I don’t know…like a requirement or something?

Here’s What I Do

I’ll tell you what I want to do, what I like to do, even: TYPE! Typing is way less painful on my hands and my ego. I can quickly hammer out my thoughts and ideas, reread them, then cut and then paste them in order. I think in bullets. And guess what? This thing (typing) will let me do that! If my bullets are out of order, with a click of a button, I move them around. It’s amazing!

Not only do I want to type, but I want to type what I’m typing as if someone else were going to read my typing. Make sense? And if I were to do this, would anyone read it? Because maybe, just maybe, that would force me to organize my wandering thoughts into coherent sentences.

I’m Thinking Curriculum…

You know what else? My thoughts—the ones that mosey around aimlessly—they vary with each passing day. One day it’s about curriculum, the next it’s about relationships and leadership, and the next it’s simply about God and me. If only I could find a way to keep all of this in one place…to link the thoughts together. If only….

One other thing. I work for and with incredible people. I get to learn way more on a daily basis than many folks get to even when the pay for it. If only I could find a place to put all that stuff down. You know, before it gets lost roaming in my jumbled brain.

If only…

If only I could find a way to do that….to type…my various thoughts…and the cool things I get to learn every day….publically…linked together…if only.

It’s hopeless…I don’t know what to do.

Anybody have ideas?

[Image from Zack]